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I haven't update this blog for such a long time... because my english standard has terminated at this moment.. seem like Muet supposed to be a good motivation for a university student to try to improve his/her english huh???

*p.s: I took Muet already..

xiao ren

I have tried to be kind to you. But thing goes worse anyway.

However, exhilaration comes in. Yeah.

Stay away from me.

i have told already

That day I told her to put my thing back into the store but near the door because my things were put near the door. I needed to go out with my aunty. I cannot wait people to return my thing. I waited for such a long time. I knew that when I went back, the door sure had been closed.

Anyway, it disappeared because I did not treasure it enough...

Yup, don't ever to think that you can own a thing forever.

Language barrier again? wtf.

first day

First day, as usual, the most relax day. But, the sense of alienation surrounded me. I still cannot catch up with the words that people said to me. The environment is familiar as I have been here for some time. Yet, i am still unfamiliar with others.

Maybe, people like me can only master mother tongue. I am not really wanna ranting here. I am calm... calm enough to accept the fact that I have to become a "deaf" for the next coming year

Conclusion......

Lifestyle:

no doubt, sedentary lifestyle. sitting in front of the laptop, searching for something new, 10 G digi is just too tempting! haha.. besides sitting, sleeping has eaten most of my day. I just can't help it. Frankly to say, I slept more than 10 hours. Sometimes, I hard to sleep at night. My eyes still open big big even though the time has reached 4 o'clock. I am kinda energetic during the night. And my comfortable bed is the “culprit" who drag me into a very deep sleep every morning.

Movies:

non-stop watching movies. My dad is a movie-lover. He turned the living room into a mini cinema. I am not exaggerating. He even bought the projector & a special wide screen which the movie can be projected on it. maybe u will think, omg a projector? this should be found in the classroom and used to project the boring power points (maktab)
& also, I have watched shrek, A-team, karate kids, Ip man-the legend is born, Knight and Day............ in the cinema.. & I really wanna fuck smashed the people when they kept making noise in the cinema from the start to the end of the movie. Selfish. Whatelse?

World Cup:

last time when I was in secondary school, yup, I love football.. because I was affected by the comic.. and that time, I was the fan of Ronaldo. (Brazil) And this time, I'm glad that my dad subscribed the Astro Sports Channel.. It was thrilling to reminisce the days when I loved football.. As usual, I support Brazil. Yet, the players that I once supported have retired. And this time I saw many new players for Brazil, except Kaka. I think this time the Brazil team is less energetic. The attack is less powerful than before. Anyway, I am glad that this team has made it all the way. In addition, I really can't stop ogling Cristiano Ronaldo. XD woah. He took off his shirts after the game. too sexy. Kaka is cute too. Don't take me wrong. I still got look at the skills as if I know little bit footballs. lol. Argentina plays well too.

Books:
I have read 2 novels...... only...Thanks for the Memories and The Book of tomorrow. All by Cecelia Ahern. For TFTM, I can't believe I finished it. I like that some parts of the story are humour. But I don't like where the main characters are hardly to meet each other. For TBO2ml, it is the latest book by Cecelia. Love it. I cannot put down the book when I read the climax part. I wondered why the name is the book of tomorrow at first. Maybe you are clever to know why before reading it. It is really an intriguing book. Ahha! Another book, The Gift, from CA too, is a good read. Now, waiting the chance to come across another interesting fiction.....................

New member:

Finally, I have own a human-sized patung!!! XD it is a shape of monkey. I hug it to sleep every night. Thanks to my aunty. She bought it to me when she visited me in Kuching. I always wanna own a patung like this.. I am waiting for my future prince to buy me one. =p But thanks to my aunty to help me realise this dream earlier. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... At this moment, I cant upload the pictures here. How woeful. Digi broadband speed is fast. But it encounters problems while uploading pictures. =(

Conclusion:

I hope the new semester is a good start with good ending. short and precise, right?

STILL WANT MORE HOLIDAYS IS MOST OF THE HUMAN BASIC INSTICT.

waste

Recently, government planned to use RM 800 million to build a new Parliament house in Putrajaya and the existing building becomes a heritage. And then before, the Government kept pointing an accusing finger to the citizens for wasting the money ourselves bla bla bla... no saving the money la.. what la...

All of us are clever enough to know that our economical status has deteriorated day by day. And the new 5 star Parliament house will be comfortable enough for the politicians to place their ass on the seats but not upgrading their brains at the same time. What we need are schools, hospitals, upgraded good facilities in the remote areas and so forth.

Why I bring up this topic all of a sudden? Nothing special. Just wanna write this story and I have a heart to write now. Plus this situation was very similar to my maktab Pengarah, puan XXX.

Puan XXX has brought up the programme, holy shit i cant even rmbr the name of the programme now!!! love holidays so much lol something like save the energy, use the energy wisely.

And she also the same, kept scolding, accusing, all bullshit said the lecturers and the students for wasting the electric and water. Ok, fine. Good also la kan.. we should jimat tenaga juga..

Then the institute build a team for this programme. They hold the meetings and my friend was one of the committee. And I was lucky to heard some news that astonished me. You know which building has the highest costs of electricity bill???

Hostels? Library there? Lecturers' office?? NONONO.. is pejabat am dude. Pejabat Am.
For us who study here, we know that pejabat am is a totally different world. It is akin a 5-star place. Hmm.. How should I describe? Once u walk into that place, you feel like you walk into a hotel's lobby.. Lol...

I heard that after the Puan XXX came to our school, she built this new pejabat am. It was her idea.

Ok, then, that lady.............. she has too much oil in her body to be burnt that she needs 2 air-conditioner in her room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One person uses 2 air -coned and the workers in that office always don't switch off the air-coned after used. These kind of attitude resulted rm4000++ bill just for this pejabat am only.. Funny huh?

So just wanna say this is the situation that always occurs in the country. While pointing your accusing finger at other people, please think of your demeanour first. They are good in creating wonderful plans but always stun the citizens because the plans seldom come true.

familiar and unfamiliar

Do u ever feel like the feeling between familiar and unfamiliar to a person? This feeling was so strong to me... when I looked that significant picture.. which I don't wanna disclose here.
Familiar... because we were close before.. close.. because I wanted to.
Unfamiliar... because U & I don't care anymore.

Listening

Listening to Sara Mclachlan latest album.. Laws of Illusions... Sometimes soothing musics are what I need...

Not really my usual style. But, random is my style. So, nothing bad to listen to the genre of music that I seldom listen before...

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A-Team

Today I went to watch A-TEAM!!!!!!!! I have not watched any trailer on screen before... Just saw the poster everytime I passed by the MBO cinema.. And today was the sneak peak!!! And this movie was turned out to be awesome!!! Lots of actions and it was damn hilarious!!! for me la.. hehehe..

another movie recommendation for those who are in a-month-long holidays like me or who needs to release tension. No regrets for u to watch it. XD

well, when I was on the way to watch A-Team. I was nearly involved in an car accident!! my dad was driving STRAIGHT on the road, but then the driver which was on other lane suddenly came out from his lane. That stupid driver dint even see the Side mirror and signal or whatever before he wanna went to the other side. My dad with his super driving technique, turned the steering wheel to the other side and sounded the horn to that guy. I think that time the distance between my car and the other one is not more than 5 cm not very sure i just wanna say it was fucking close, if that guy hit my car i will punch his face kick his ass, break his bones....... in my mind and sure my dad said foul words to him, " FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!! and stared him with his wild eyes.. well, i seldom support my dad to be aggresive, except this time. If that car hit my just-bought-a-few-month-cute-little-Elite-Viva, my dad sure will go down the car and punch him.

I believe God is beside my family and watching me at that time, thats why we are safe now.

PHEW........... anyway,I'm glad that nothing had happend. otherwise, I cant watch A-Team happily and laughing like what........... PEACE. =)

Road

there was a road that I had taken before. It was a muddy road. Traps and holes everywhere. I was hurt umpteen times. I was stubborn. Kept walking. Trial and error. Failed. Ran out of energy. There was a hope. Only if I took another path. Yes. I would be free. Only if I totally gave up. Put it down.

Now this is the other road. Keep walking. Sometimes I will look back. Missing the old path. Heartache. Yet still missing. Yet I can enjoy this new scenery. With the remaining people. Accompany me. Lucky. Life still goes on.

Well, it is hard to explain what road I mean here. Or maybe bcoz I don wanna xplain. Let the meaning subsides in your heart. coz u may have another explaination.

我承认我是一个不干脆的人。或许是因为拥有的东西太多了。所以，以为所有的东西可以归我所有。哼，真自大。不是所有的人都可以不带走一片云彩。可是，我真的很想学习。。不去理会所谓的不公平。。潇潇洒洒。

A message

This was a message from my friend to me.. I think it was well-written..

'' I think this is a turning point for us. b4, we are like a roller coaster, too many ups and downs.. we almost crashed and burnt twice.. I hope we'll be like a train after this.. on plain track but we can see beautiful scenery along the journey.. but there's also bumps and noise.. and still glide on the track peacefully.. this relationship is too precious to let go.. we'll b friend till d end of time.. ''

yes, he was a special friend for me. sometimes, i cant guess what is he thinking.. I believe that he doesnt want to let people know all the things about him too.. helah belah diri? protective? sometimes we can be kinda close.. but we always sometimes don't.. hmmm.. this kind of unstable relationship can really kill me.. maybe it's because of the miserable past experience that happened to me at school before. well, i wont demand others to understand... and i dont want to mention anymore..

My friend said I admire and praise people easily.. She was right.. When I saw others did the thing that I couldn't do, I would think that" wahhhhhhhhh, so li hai this person!!!"

Why I wanna say this? because he is the person that I always think he is very li hai one.. He is very talented............. *skip the talents part* XD

I may care too much about a friend.. chinese proverb says," u depend on your parents at home, but u depend on your friends when you are outside.", thats why good friends are extremely important..

Yet, I wanna change my habits of putting overload caring on a friendship/relationship.. I have learnt that there doesn't have a fixed formula in a friendship.. You are not necessarily need to stick all day with a friend, baru call "friend".. the person that you care maybe choke to death because you don't give him/her more spaces. If I always feel insecure of a friendship, it is because I have Extra useless feeling... And now, I need to always remind myself to get rid of this kind of feeling to avoid another heart-broken.

"Others do not have to treat you the way that you treat them" I learnt this from my friend too..She is totally right..

I am naive to imagine that "maybe he will do this to me". but when the reality doesnt not happen on me, & it happens on other, sadness is the only path. (strange huh? My wishes... come true on other's people... woeful....... ) A friend has the authority to treat other people good... rather than me.. So, I will stop myself from imagining these stupid things from now on.

There is so much that I need to learn in my life... Knowledge, friendship, love, and so on.... I should stop imagine and beg for the thing that I don't need now... High expectation will lead to destruction..

I only need to expect and focus on the job that I have to complete.. I can't even manage my life and act like a 21 year-old person. I hate being childish but I can't help it.. I can only realise that I have done a totally big mistake after the incidents.

I did not have a new start in the semester 1 and my 21 year-old life.. My life was disorganized and my results are totally a mess.

SIGH. WTF. I hope I can still ameliorate the situation in the next semester. I am not dare to write out the resolutions and the beautiful wishes. coz Im afraid that I cant do them again and only talk big here.

it sucks when your mind says let go, but your heart tells you to hold on.. I hope we wont quarrel anymore. Cold war is suck.

God bless..

-要提起就要完全提起，要放下就要完全放下

I watched it too!!

Finally......... I watched the movie "SHREK FOREVER AFTER" with my parents yesterday... Actually I should be watching with my friends Sim Yian Juang and Malvin Tan....... But then tat Juang got some problem and put me aeroplane... Then I have to break promise with Malvin too... I rushed my packing at that time because I hoped to watch this movie with my friends... Then... it was really "sayang".... Cartoon is better to be watched with my friends.. I pity my parents were forced by me to watch with me.. Actually I had given a very strong signal to Malvin that I would like him to watch with me in Kuching wished to invite him to watch with me in Kuching but he told me that Kuching's ticket is expensive, so I thought he did not have interest.. so I did not ask him lo... ok, never mind.. XD

Although I had never watched the episode 1,2 , and 3, I went to watch the final chapter @_@ I even asked my teacher could I watch this movie even if I had never watched the others episode before.. And I think it should be a nice movie coz even a 36 30 something year-old young ??? man likes it. hiak hiak hiak..

Ahha... I kinda like this movie... Cause besides of the hillarious and kawaii of the movie, it conveyed some lesson to me.. such as" U already got what u want, but u never see it.." Yup Shrek has got his friends and his family, yet he did not treasure it... He wanted to dump all the treasures away and be somehow aggressive and to be hated by people again... @_@ strange huh.. But human always behave like that too..

My tears even roll down when Shrek talked to his wife," Do you know what is the best part of the day? I am able to fall in love with you all over again.."

When Shrek back to the past and met his wife, his wife did not know him at all.. And Shrek has to start over again to chase his wife... Thats why " To fall in love with you all over again" Awwwwwwwwwww... Sweet... this greeny ogre..

However, there are some characters that seem like so outstanding, such as............ OMG I LOVE HIM PUSS IN THE BOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he looked so cool in the movie.. but in the past, he used to be a very fat and chubby cat that manja-manja by the princess.. LOL.. I love the part which that PUSS hold the pole and slided down.. and the WATERY EYES... as below:





ok, friends.. i wished u guys have the chance to watch this movie too!!!!!!!!!! I hoped I could watch the episode before too!!!!!!!! especially the episode that got Mr Puss!!!!!!!! Teehee~~

Finally Mr H!!!

hey yo............. Finally, lots of free time here... whos is Me H.............

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MR HOLIDAYS!!!

Last time the holidays were in March... Although it is not a really long wait for somebody, it is A SUPER-DUPER LONG wait for me ok... After the exams, I have worked non-stop.. Packing all my things.. Well, for your information, I think I have the most things tat needed to be packed for my batch. This semester, I needed 4 boxes, 5 big plastics, one Polo suitcase, and a handcarry bag to store my things. O_o

I cant imagine what will happen for the next semester as books and files will surely increase!!!!!!!!!! Oh gosh......... Stop stop stop thinking about next semester >

After I reached home yesterday and have a short chit chat with mum...... erm, short? XD then I have a nice sleep in the morning............... TILL MIDNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! More than 12 hours.... Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~

U can guess how exhausted am I , huh?

My house in Kuching is big.............. But I will be very lonely without my brother... My dear brother.. T^T this is the drawback of having just only 2 kids in a family. sigh... My brother now has returned to Miri and enjoy himself very much is doing to find him a job soon... Well, congratz to him for realising his dream. Miri is an ideal place for him as his BUDDIES are waiting for him. 希望一切顺顺利利。。so tat the chances for me to visit Miri are getting higher!!!!!!!!!! Wakakakaak.. I really miss my hometown and my friends.............. I wont forget my root anyway... I grew up in Miri and it is my ONLY hometown.. I was being raised and educated in Miri.

*jump topic*

Lets talk about this semester XD very impromptu huh.. Well, this is the first semester of my degree life.. I dont really understand what had I done in the first semester and it ended just like that =________= I only know that I am lack of time to study... it is very woeful to me... 读书对我来说真的很重要，可是这次考试我看还是凶多吉少了。。唉。。 well, which college has so many NONSENSE activities even one week before exam????????????

I really dont understand why... when u wanna concentrate in studies, then suddenly POP!! AHHA!! U have worked tat needed to be done!! WAJIB! wajib wajib wajib.. the word that i hate the most.. keep threatening our lives here....

sigh... Maybe it is a lesson to me..... I really hope that next semester will be better......... even though I already know tat sem 2 will be busier than sem 1 =____=

Hey dd, jeje miss u la... I wonder if u miss me too??? T________T

arrrrrrgggghhhhh

Exam season is coming again.. yet this time i think the exam will be so hard for me. last time when i was in secondary school, exam should be not a really big problem... But now, seeing the environment lk this... is really a SIGH.

This institute... semakin near exam, semakin busy.... they are really looking down at the exam.. exam is not " pass then enough" for me... I wont care if de activities not involve me, but they affected me very much..

IPG campus Gaya is so not considerate. Last week, my class jst finished fish tail ( a kind of banner which shaped like fish tail). The fish tail competition was held by jabatan sains.. as u know, we need to plan, draw, colour, and so on. OK, i tried my best to help- drawing and colouring... because i thought it should be LAST LAST LAST activity before exam... we even locked outside de gate because we went back to hostel at 12 am.. It was really SUCK.

After passed up YES YIPPIE YAHOOO!!! MERDEKA WTF! JPP said ," ok! another activity comes up!!! Poster drawing for class!!!!!!!!!!!!

POSTER? -DRAW AND COLOUR? ok, fine.. me again.. (sure other frens are involved too.. U THINK THIS IS THE LAST? Pertandingan bola baling this Friday..... =____= Bola baling.... I was forced to involve too... they kept saying tat I played well before... No, this is not the truth...Not enough people, so terpaksa get me in..

CONCLUSION: IN LESS THAN 2 WEEK, U NEED TO STUDY ALL THE SUBJECTS FOR FINAL, AND I DONT EVEN MASTER ONE OF THE SUBJECT YET...

DOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

曾几何时，考试对我来说是轻而易举，但现在的我，已无能为力。。只能看着时间流逝。。

HAHAHAAHA

Looking back my old posts..... they looked childish.. interesting huh... at least i have been young before... =___________= ok, this is all i want to say now.. because I was too tired playing water and climbing rocks today.. oops wats tat mean? maybe I will tell u soon.. if i have de mood to write.. lol

Putus cinta

WOW. My title..................... not for me.. don worry.. just tat my frensssssssssss.. most of them had lost their love one recently... I had not expected all of these will happen... coz some of them look so "stabil" with their ex- boyfrenss.... Well, what to do? Human can change very fast too.. For this second he/she treats u passionately, then don knw what will happen the next second... Recently I love an article very much.. 上了大学才知道。。。

上了大学才知道，许多曾经的人会变得让你认不出，但请 留住回忆。

Human can change easily............ really...... sometimes u dont understand and cant figure out de reason... If they changed, until u nearly cant recognize them, it would be useless to find the reasons...... At least, keep the memories.

When my frens are sad, what can I do? I can only supply CAMPAP tissue paper...... I dont knw how to console ppl.. cause I dont have any experience in love.. what I said is also immature.. Well, maybe this is useful too.. My good fren is appreciate me at least ^^

Anyway, we are all waiting for the true prince to come into our lives....... although they are nearly pupus lol........ GOD BLESS....

Wow... it has been such a long time since I updated my blog last time.. I can create so many reasons and explain the reasons of why Im not updating my blog..

1) I think my life is mundane. There are less interesting events to share with others.

2) after the end of the MUET, I have nil motivation to study english and increase my vocabulary. I think if I do not improve my English, it is hard for me to express my opinions with the others. I am kinda ashamed if there are too many blunders in my writing.

3) Life is hectic. Same routines are keep repeating. Assignments, ISL (Independent self learning la...... kononnya... every week lagi tu ==) , presentations.... Sigh.. I really dont understand why there are so many these kind of things.. Albeit I have been doing abundant assignments, I do not have any improvement in my studies and my life.

4) The kura-kura speed of my burukband... I do not have faith in the broadband.. I will feel agitated if I have finished writing but failed to save.. WTH? and I hate to wait such a long time to upload the photos...

5) Facebook.. woah... this thing is getting boring.. yet I still cant retrieve myself from it. I often express my impromptu feeling through status upadate. But it has created some misunderstandings too.. lol..

6) This is the foremost important reason.. Idleness... Ya.. Im totally a lazy pig now.. I should blame my brother for keep calling me piggy sis.. Now, I am lazy to study, do assignments, homework and so on.. I have been lost track to the study progress. I really dont understand what am i studying now,... The subjects are really really extremely BORING!!!!!!!! u see, i am really frustrated with this.. Like de subject "GERKO/kokurikulum, we need to do for 3 or 4 tugasan.. tugasan is just like assignments for me.. Nothing different. H-A-T-E.


Ok, enough of the nonsense.. lol.. i also dont know why i suddenly have the mood to update a post.. Well, RANDOM. Tats me XD

Lastly, I really appreciated my friends who call me to update my blog.. Thanks.. =)