A message

This was a message from my friend to me.. I think it was well-written..

'' I think this is a turning point for us. b4, we are like a roller coaster, too many ups and downs.. we almost crashed and burnt twice.. I hope we'll be like a train after this.. on plain track but we can see beautiful scenery along the journey.. but there's also bumps and noise.. and still glide on the track peacefully.. this relationship is too precious to let go.. we'll b friend till d end of time.. ''

yes, he was a special friend for me. sometimes, i cant guess what is he thinking.. I believe that he doesnt want to let people know all the things about him too.. helah belah diri? protective? sometimes we can be kinda close.. but we always sometimes don't.. hmmm.. this kind of unstable relationship can really kill me.. maybe it's because of the miserable past experience that happened to me at school before. well, i wont demand others to understand... and i dont want to mention anymore..

My friend said I admire and praise people easily.. She was right.. When I saw others did the thing that I couldn't do, I would think that" wahhhhhhhhh, so li hai this person!!!"

Why I wanna say this? because he is the person that I always think he is very li hai one.. He is very talented............. *skip the talents part* XD

I may care too much about a friend.. chinese proverb says," u depend on your parents at home, but u depend on your friends when you are outside.", thats why good friends are extremely important..

Yet, I wanna change my habits of putting overload caring on a friendship/relationship.. I have learnt that there doesn't have a fixed formula in a friendship.. You are not necessarily need to stick all day with a friend, baru call "friend".. the person that you care maybe choke to death because you don't give him/her more spaces. If I always feel insecure of a friendship, it is because I have Extra useless feeling... And now, I need to always remind myself to get rid of this kind of feeling to avoid another heart-broken.

"Others do not have to treat you the way that you treat them" I learnt this from my friend too..She is totally right..

I am naive to imagine that "maybe he will do this to me". but when the reality doesnt not happen on me, & it happens on other, sadness is the only path. (strange huh? My wishes... come true on other's people... woeful....... ) A friend has the authority to treat other people good... rather than me.. So, I will stop myself from imagining these stupid things from now on.

There is so much that I need to learn in my life... Knowledge, friendship, love, and so on.... I should stop imagine and beg for the thing that I don't need now... High expectation will lead to destruction..

I only need to expect and focus on the job that I have to complete.. I can't even manage my life and act like a 21 year-old person. I hate being childish but I can't help it.. I can only realise that I have done a totally big mistake after the incidents.

I did not have a new start in the semester 1 and my 21 year-old life.. My life was disorganized and my results are totally a mess.

SIGH. WTF. I hope I can still ameliorate the situation in the next semester. I am not dare to write out the resolutions and the beautiful wishes. coz Im afraid that I cant do them again and only talk big here.

it sucks when your mind says let go, but your heart tells you to hold on.. I hope we wont quarrel anymore. Cold war is suck.

God bless..

-要提起就要完全提起，要放下就要完全放下

I watched it too!!

Finally......... I watched the movie "SHREK FOREVER AFTER" with my parents yesterday... Actually I should be watching with my friends Sim Yian Juang and Malvin Tan....... But then tat Juang got some problem and put me aeroplane... Then I have to break promise with Malvin too... I rushed my packing at that time because I hoped to watch this movie with my friends... Then... it was really "sayang".... Cartoon is better to be watched with my friends.. I pity my parents were forced by me to watch with me.. Actually I had given a very strong signal to Malvin that I would like him to watch with me in Kuching wished to invite him to watch with me in Kuching but he told me that Kuching's ticket is expensive, so I thought he did not have interest.. so I did not ask him lo... ok, never mind.. XD

Although I had never watched the episode 1,2 , and 3, I went to watch the final chapter @_@ I even asked my teacher could I watch this movie even if I had never watched the others episode before.. And I think it should be a nice movie coz even a 36 30 something year-old young ??? man likes it. hiak hiak hiak..

Ahha... I kinda like this movie... Cause besides of the hillarious and kawaii of the movie, it conveyed some lesson to me.. such as" U already got what u want, but u never see it.." Yup Shrek has got his friends and his family, yet he did not treasure it... He wanted to dump all the treasures away and be somehow aggressive and to be hated by people again... @_@ strange huh.. But human always behave like that too..

My tears even roll down when Shrek talked to his wife," Do you know what is the best part of the day? I am able to fall in love with you all over again.."

When Shrek back to the past and met his wife, his wife did not know him at all.. And Shrek has to start over again to chase his wife... Thats why " To fall in love with you all over again" Awwwwwwwwwww... Sweet... this greeny ogre..

However, there are some characters that seem like so outstanding, such as............ OMG I LOVE HIM PUSS IN THE BOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he looked so cool in the movie.. but in the past, he used to be a very fat and chubby cat that manja-manja by the princess.. LOL.. I love the part which that PUSS hold the pole and slided down.. and the WATERY EYES... as below:





ok, friends.. i wished u guys have the chance to watch this movie too!!!!!!!!!! I hoped I could watch the episode before too!!!!!!!! especially the episode that got Mr Puss!!!!!!!! Teehee~~

Finally Mr H!!!

hey yo............. Finally, lots of free time here... whos is Me H.............

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MR HOLIDAYS!!!

Last time the holidays were in March... Although it is not a really long wait for somebody, it is A SUPER-DUPER LONG wait for me ok... After the exams, I have worked non-stop.. Packing all my things.. Well, for your information, I think I have the most things tat needed to be packed for my batch. This semester, I needed 4 boxes, 5 big plastics, one Polo suitcase, and a handcarry bag to store my things. O_o

I cant imagine what will happen for the next semester as books and files will surely increase!!!!!!!!!! Oh gosh......... Stop stop stop thinking about next semester >

After I reached home yesterday and have a short chit chat with mum...... erm, short? XD then I have a nice sleep in the morning............... TILL MIDNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! More than 12 hours.... Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~

U can guess how exhausted am I , huh?

My house in Kuching is big.............. But I will be very lonely without my brother... My dear brother.. T^T this is the drawback of having just only 2 kids in a family. sigh... My brother now has returned to Miri and enjoy himself very much is doing to find him a job soon... Well, congratz to him for realising his dream. Miri is an ideal place for him as his BUDDIES are waiting for him. 希望一切顺顺利利。。so tat the chances for me to visit Miri are getting higher!!!!!!!!!! Wakakakaak.. I really miss my hometown and my friends.............. I wont forget my root anyway... I grew up in Miri and it is my ONLY hometown.. I was being raised and educated in Miri.

*jump topic*

Lets talk about this semester XD very impromptu huh.. Well, this is the first semester of my degree life.. I dont really understand what had I done in the first semester and it ended just like that =________= I only know that I am lack of time to study... it is very woeful to me... 读书对我来说真的很重要，可是这次考试我看还是凶多吉少了。。唉。。 well, which college has so many NONSENSE activities even one week before exam????????????

I really dont understand why... when u wanna concentrate in studies, then suddenly POP!! AHHA!! U have worked tat needed to be done!! WAJIB! wajib wajib wajib.. the word that i hate the most.. keep threatening our lives here....

sigh... Maybe it is a lesson to me..... I really hope that next semester will be better......... even though I already know tat sem 2 will be busier than sem 1 =____=

Hey dd, jeje miss u la... I wonder if u miss me too??? T________T

arrrrrrgggghhhhh

Exam season is coming again.. yet this time i think the exam will be so hard for me. last time when i was in secondary school, exam should be not a really big problem... But now, seeing the environment lk this... is really a SIGH.

This institute... semakin near exam, semakin busy.... they are really looking down at the exam.. exam is not " pass then enough" for me... I wont care if de activities not involve me, but they affected me very much..

IPG campus Gaya is so not considerate. Last week, my class jst finished fish tail ( a kind of banner which shaped like fish tail). The fish tail competition was held by jabatan sains.. as u know, we need to plan, draw, colour, and so on. OK, i tried my best to help- drawing and colouring... because i thought it should be LAST LAST LAST activity before exam... we even locked outside de gate because we went back to hostel at 12 am.. It was really SUCK.

After passed up YES YIPPIE YAHOOO!!! MERDEKA WTF! JPP said ," ok! another activity comes up!!! Poster drawing for class!!!!!!!!!!!!

POSTER? -DRAW AND COLOUR? ok, fine.. me again.. (sure other frens are involved too.. U THINK THIS IS THE LAST? Pertandingan bola baling this Friday..... =____= Bola baling.... I was forced to involve too... they kept saying tat I played well before... No, this is not the truth...Not enough people, so terpaksa get me in..

CONCLUSION: IN LESS THAN 2 WEEK, U NEED TO STUDY ALL THE SUBJECTS FOR FINAL, AND I DONT EVEN MASTER ONE OF THE SUBJECT YET...

DOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

曾几何时，考试对我来说是轻而易举，但现在的我，已无能为力。。只能看着时间流逝。。

HAHAHAAHA

Looking back my old posts..... they looked childish.. interesting huh... at least i have been young before... =___________= ok, this is all i want to say now.. because I was too tired playing water and climbing rocks today.. oops wats tat mean? maybe I will tell u soon.. if i have de mood to write.. lol