a guilty conscience

Monday - I ruined my roommate's iron. Luckily it still can be used. And she did not angry. Phew~ but i was culpable for my carelessness.

Tuesday - While playing bola baling, I wanna threw the ball. But the ball slipped from my hand and hit my friend's face. I apologized. I felt guilty.

Wednesday - what will happen. I don dare to think. (I foretell that the rest of the week will be auspicious for @teng) hehe...

And I never mean to hurt anyone. Really. Truly. Sincerely. Sorry

著作権を所有します。

Recently my life is mundane as usual.. There is no special event has happened tat can make people excited about it.. Maybe it is good also because it means I am safe enough. I just need to repeat the monotonous task everyday.

But, there are always something that can affect your mood. Such as, how do you feel when you see other people imitate your work? Since you have spent so many sleepless nights and so many hours to find information from everywhere and finally you success to create the work that you are satisfied with. I have done the research on that things for such a long duration. Now I can understand why the artists are frustrated when there are people steal their work and produce pirated CDs. It is absolute agony. And also, if you cant even know the basic, how can you create the work which is advanced your level? I just feel sorry that I cant tell everything right now.. It is unfortunate for you to meet an egocentric person like me.

It's Ok also as most of the work is done by me. That is fine. I will convince myself that I have learnt umpteen knowledge. Because I learned that I cant always have faith in other people. I am just a toy that is played by other mankind.

jj@teng all rights reserved

亲爱的小孩

亲爱的小孩：

曾经我也想你一样，抬头仰望一片新叶，看一朵飘过的云，就会觉得快乐。

曾经我也能静静地站在树下，听风翻舞树林，小鸟鸣唱，就会觉得感动。

昨天我在公园里学你，听鸟唱风吹，看绿叶云飘，竟觉得十分地萧索无趣。

我感到微微地震撼，心情郁闷地走进一家高级餐厅，点了昂贵的餐，还喝了红酒。后来，我态度倨傲
地抱怨鱼子酱不新鲜，指责牛排不够嫩。。。。其实我只是借故发挥，舒缓我躁郁难平的情绪。。。我一直很懊恼，我怎么会变得如此可憎呢？

我嫉妒你，痛心哀悼我逝去的。。

大话证劵 王董 四月六日

摘自《我只能为你画一张小卡片》

欣赏几米ing。。。

最近爱上了几米的作品，为何没早点注意到你的作品呢?
几米的文章是那么的真实，又是那么的虚幻。
介于那个美妙的平衡点。希望有空可以分享几米的文章。打华语字比较难，需要多点时间。哈哈。
人总是这样吧。爱幻想自己很凄凉。。我也是其中一个。喜欢冷嗖嗖的感觉。。我就分享其中一句我深深爱上的句子吧。。

冬日，天一暗，即昏沉入睡。夜里的梦又多又杂，天未亮就恍惚醒来。真伤脑筋。

摘自-我只能为你画一张卡片

Let bygone be bygone

I was so hilarious.. I thought that I would not hurt by you anymore. I was ambivalent. Anyway, I will wear a mask and walk away tho scandal wont stop. Let bygone be bygone.. Do not dig out the absurd feeling again.
End.

Maze

I was the most unfortunate.
I knew that there was no exit out of this maze.

Then, he was the next unfortunate.
He did not know that there was no exit out of this maze.

But all the rest weren't so unfortunate.
They didn't know that they were in the maze in the first place.

-Frederica Bernkastel

Perhaps

Maybe I should not possess anything

I can relinquish everything..

Possessing is good

Losing is also okay..

Hope everything will be fine

Perhaps I can surpass these..

As time is sprinting

in this shimmering city.

reiterate

Again.. I commit the sin of omission..

miles away

Yes, I saw you today.. so near yet so far.. I will endure the torment anyway.

skeptical

phew~ finally i success to log in my blog. I should treasure the opportunity to update although i dont have anything special to share. How woeful..

Now my life goes on by doing assignments blindly.. And when you knew there were some mistakes in your assignments, it was akin a knife which was piercing your heart. I know every human makes flaws. I should accept the reality with open-hearted and avoid making the same mistake notwithstanding I always do. I also detest that I cant get full mark in the exam because of careless mistakes.. careless careless careless.. what the hell.. Get out from my life!

Besides, I also skeptical of myself.. Just feel like starting to lose my target.. Or maybe it is because I am not dare to dream big. I dont want to face the trepidation. Whatever... The most important now is finishing all the damn assignments and presentations so that i can focus on studies. Yea.. I forget how to study hard.. How to achieve excellent results.. Does it important anyway? Who cares? As long as i can finish this one-and-a-half-year foundation course ( what for with the extra-half-year) i should be contended.

Holiday

wohoooooo!!!!!! Yeeeha!!!!!!!!

Finally I was in kuching! Wow it was a long journey.. the flight delay a bit because it was raining.. And so many people went to kuching tat day.. I was unable to sit with my friend so I felt a little bit insecure.. hehe.. why the air asia doesnt allow us to sit at Fixed position? sigh.. Anyway, one week holiday is transient. it passes in a wink of an eye.. I don wan to do anything and let it passes like tat.. One of my friend with special characteristic said time is used to be wasted.. Wow.. speechless.. isnt it true? we oways let time passes and we become old day by day.. we dont know how long can we stay alive..

Hey, "touch wood". why say this kind of thing now? =_= it is not like me.. I am forced to swith off my idleness anyway.. I mst try to do some assignments this holiday for the sake of easiness of life in the future.. so i end this post with this..

IDLENESS, PLEASE $WITH OFF!!!!!!!!!!!

My God

This post is especially for my God. Thank you for helping me found my N70 memory card. HAHAHA..

And please bless my mother will stay healthy forever and overcome the obstacles.

And my one and only brother.. Wish you can finish the course smoothly and find a good job.. And also a nice girl lah.. hahaha..

I knw i am greedy.. BUt if my family can stay happiness, i can endure all the hardship of life.. I no need always woory about them.. I think i can endure the study life at gaya there.. No matter how hard is it.. Life isnt easy.. 不容易啊。。。 lol..

My simple request is my family can be always healthy and happy.. MAMA and DIDI.. I love you. Muacks.

Ameliorate or downgrade

Recently, I was forgetful.. I had lost my N70 memory card which contained my precious memory. Heart-broken. God bless me I can find it soon pls.. I swear I will take care of it.

Next, I am idle and work-shy. I just dont have the motivation to work. Maybe it is because the holiday is impending.. Or I'm missing my family. Or you are not my lecturer anymore.. Anyway, I will drag my body to continue the work. Sigh.. 

I should ameliorate myself.. But, when can I achieve my dream? I still have a long way to go. Do I still alive before attain the dream? Seeing my friends move forward day by day, yet I am standing at the starting point.. Or maybe I'm moving backward.. I am akin a kampung girl.

I'm emo now. Time to log out. Night..

Happy Birthday

Today is Beatrice and Kee Hee birthday.. As a friend, I can only wish you two happy birthday.. Wish our friendship is eternity although we are far away from each other. ALL THE BEST TO MY FRIENDS!

最近怎么了。。。

如果你认为友情不值得你为它牺牲，那么你不懂得珍惜。

p.s: LAU WUI XIN'S POST.. SINCE BABE U WANT POST, I LET U POST BA.. SEE I SO SO BENIGN ^^

Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air.
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go.
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all.
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life's gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.