Starry Night

no update

2010-09-02T17:13:00.002+08:00

I haven't update this blog for such a long time... because my english standard has terminated at this moment.. seem like Muet supposed to be a good motivation for a university student to try to improve his/her english huh???

*p.s: I took Muet already..

xiao ren

2010-06-28T21:03:00.002+08:00

I have tried to be kind to you. But thing goes worse anyway.

However, exhilaration comes in. Yeah.

Stay away from me.

i have told already

2010-06-28T20:30:00.003+08:00

That day I told her to put my thing back into the store but near the door because my things were put near the door. I needed to go out with my aunty. I cannot wait people to return my thing. I waited for such a long time. I knew that when I went back, the door sure had been closed.

Anyway, it disappeared because I did not treasure it enough...

Yup, don't ever to think that you can own a thing forever.

Language barrier again? wtf.

first day

2010-06-28T20:09:00.002+08:00

First day, as usual, the most relax day. But, the sense of alienation surrounded me. I still cannot catch up with the words that people said to me. The environment is familiar as I have been here for some time. Yet, i am still unfamiliar with others.

Maybe, people like me can only master mother tongue. I am not really wanna ranting here. I am calm... calm enough to accept the fact that I have to become a "deaf" for the next coming year

Conclusion......

2010-06-26T01:06:00.007+08:00

Lifestyle:

no doubt, sedentary lifestyle. sitting in front of the laptop, searching for something new, 10 G digi is just too tempting! haha.. besides sitting, sleeping has eaten most of my day. I just can't help it. Frankly to say, I slept more than 10 hours. Sometimes, I hard to sleep at night. My eyes still open big big even though the time has reached 4 o'clock. I am kinda energetic during the night. And my comfortable bed is the “culprit" who drag me into a very deep sleep every morning.

Movies:

non-stop watching movies. My dad is a movie-lover. He turned the living room into a mini cinema. I am not exaggerating. He even bought the projector & a special wide screen which the movie can be projected on it. ~~maybe u will think, omg a projector? this should be found in the classroom and used to project the boring power points (maktab)~~
& also, I have watched shrek, A-team, karate kids, Ip man-the legend is born, Knight and Day............ in the cinema.. & I really wanna ~~fuck~~ smashed the people when they kept making noise in the cinema from the start to the end of the movie. Selfish. Whatelse?

World Cup:

last time when I was in secondary school, yup, I love football.. because I was affected by the comic.. and that time, I was the fan of Ronaldo. (Brazil) And this time, I'm glad that my dad subscribed the Astro Sports Channel.. It was thrilling to reminisce the days when I loved football.. As usual, I support Brazil. Yet, the players that I once supported have retired. And this time I saw many new players for Brazil, except Kaka. I think this time the Brazil team is less energetic. The attack is less powerful than before. Anyway, I am glad that this team has made it all the way. In addition, I really can't stop ogling Cristiano Ronaldo. XD woah. He took off his shirts after the game. too sexy. Kaka is cute too. Don't take me wrong. I still got look at the skills as if I know little bit footballs. lol. Argentina plays well too.

Books:
I have read 2 novels...... only...Thanks for the Memories and The Book of tomorrow. All by Cecelia Ahern. For TFTM, I can't believe I finished it. I like that some parts of the story are humour. But I don't like where the main characters are hardly to meet each other. For TBO2ml, it is the latest book by Cecelia. Love it. I cannot put down the book when I read the climax part. I wondered why the name is the book of tomorrow at first. Maybe you are clever to know why before reading it. It is really an intriguing book. Ahha! Another book, The Gift, from CA too, is a good read. Now, waiting the chance to come across another interesting fiction.....................

New member:

Finally, I have own a human-sized patung!!! XD it is a shape of monkey. I hug it to sleep every night. Thanks to my aunty. She bought it to me when she visited me in Kuching. I always wanna own a patung like this.. I am waiting for my future prince to buy me one. =p But thanks to my aunty to help me realise this dream earlier. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... At this moment, I cant upload the pictures here. How woeful. Digi broadband speed is fast. But it encounters problems while uploading pictures. =(

Conclusion:

I hope the new semester is a good start with good ending. short and precise, right?

STILL WANT MORE HOLIDAYS IS MOST OF THE HUMAN BASIC INSTICT.

waste

2010-06-21T01:59:00.002+08:00

Recently, government planned to use RM 800 million to build a new Parliament house in Putrajaya and the existing building becomes a heritage. And then before, the Government kept pointing an accusing finger to the citizens for wasting the money ourselves bla bla bla... no saving the money la.. what la...

All of us are clever enough to know that our economical status has deteriorated day by day. And the new 5 star Parliament house will be comfortable enough for the politicians to place their ass on the seats but not upgrading their brains at the same time. What we need are schools, hospitals, upgraded good facilities in the remote areas and so forth.

Why I bring up this topic all of a sudden? Nothing special. Just wanna write this story and I have a heart to write now. Plus this situation was very similar to my maktab Pengarah, puan XXX.

Puan XXX has brought up the programme, ~~holy shit i cant even rmbr the name of the programme now!!! love holidays so much lol~~ something like save the energy, use the energy wisely.

And she also the same, kept scolding, accusing, all bullshit said the lecturers and the students for wasting the electric and water. Ok, fine. Good also la kan.. we should jimat tenaga juga..

Then the institute build a team for this programme. They hold the meetings and my friend was one of the committee. And I was lucky to heard some news that astonished me. You know which building has the highest costs of electricity bill???

Hostels? Library there? Lecturers' office?? NONONO.. is pejabat am dude. Pejabat Am.
For us who study here, we know that pejabat am is a totally different world. It is akin a 5-star place. Hmm.. How should I describe? Once u walk into that place, you feel like you walk into a hotel's lobby.. Lol...

I heard that after the Puan XXX came to our school, she built this new pejabat am. It was her idea.

Ok, then, that lady.............. she has too much oil in her body to be burnt that she needs 2 air-conditioner in her room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One person uses 2 air -coned and the workers in that office always don't switch off the air-coned after used. These kind of attitude resulted rm4000++ bill just for this pejabat am only.. Funny huh?

So just wanna say this is the situation that always occurs in the country. While pointing your accusing finger at other people, please think of your demeanour first. They are good in creating wonderful plans but always stun the citizens because the plans seldom come true.

familiar and unfamiliar

2010-06-21T01:28:00.001+08:00

Do u ever feel like the feeling between familiar and unfamiliar to a person? This feeling was so strong to me... when I looked that significant picture.. which I don't wanna disclose here.
Familiar... because we were close before.. close.. because I wanted to.
Unfamiliar... because U & I don't care anymore.

Listening

2010-06-10T01:22:00.003+08:00

Listening to Sara Mclachlan latest album.. Laws of Illusions... Sometimes soothing musics are what I need...

Not really my usual style. But, random is my style. So, nothing bad to listen to the genre of music that I seldom listen before...

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A-Team

2010-06-10T00:58:00.003+08:00

Today I went to watch A-TEAM!!!!!!!! I have not watched any trailer on screen before... Just saw the poster everytime I passed by the MBO cinema.. And today was the sneak peak!!! And this movie was turned out to be awesome!!! Lots of actions and it was damn hilarious!!! for me la.. hehehe..

another movie recommendation for those who are in a-month-long holidays like me or who needs to release tension. No regrets for u to watch it. XD

well, when I was on the way to watch A-Team. I was nearly involved in an car accident!! my dad was driving STRAIGHT on the road, but then the driver which was on other lane suddenly came out from his lane. That stupid driver dint even see the Side mirror and signal or whatever before he wanna went to the other side. My dad with his super driving technique, turned the steering wheel to the other side and sounded the horn to that guy. I think that time the distance between my car and the other one is not more than 5 cm ~~not very sure i just wanna say it was fucking close, if that guy hit my car i will punch his face kick his ass, break his bones....... in my mind~~ and sure my dad said foul words to him, " FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!! and stared him with his wild eyes.. well, i seldom support my dad to be aggresive, except this time. If that car hit my just-bought-a-few-month-cute-little-Elite-Viva, my dad sure will go down the car and punch him.

I believe God is beside my family and watching me at that time, thats why we are safe now.

PHEW........... anyway,I'm glad that nothing had happend. otherwise, I cant watch A-Team happily and laughing like what........... PEACE. =)

Road

2010-06-09T01:30:00.009+08:00

there was a road that I had taken before. It was a muddy road. Traps and holes everywhere. I was hurt umpteen times. I was stubborn. Kept walking. Trial and error. Failed. Ran out of energy. There was a hope. Only if I took another path. Yes. I would be free. Only if I totally gave up. Put it down.

Now this is the other road. Keep walking. Sometimes I will look back. Missing the old path. Heartache. Yet still missing. Yet I can enjoy this new scenery. With the remaining people. Accompany me. Lucky. Life still goes on.

Well, it is hard to explain what road I mean here. Or maybe bcoz I don wanna xplain. Let the meaning subsides in your heart. coz u may have another explaination.

我承认我是一个不干脆的人。或许是因为拥有的东西太多了。所以，以为所有的东西可以归我所有。哼，真自大。不是所有的人都可以不带走一片云彩。可是，我真的很想学习。。不去理会所谓的不公平。。潇潇洒洒。

A message

2010-05-31T00:20:00.011+08:00

This was a message from my friend to me.. I think it was well-written..

'' I think this is a turning point for us. b4, we are like a roller coaster, too many ups and downs.. we almost crashed and burnt twice.. I hope we'll be like a train after this.. on plain track but we can see beautiful scenery along the journey.. but there's also bumps and noise.. and still glide on the track peacefully.. this relationship is too precious to let go.. we'll b friend till d end of time.. ''

yes, he was a special friend for me. sometimes, i cant guess what is he thinking.. I believe that he doesnt want to let people know all the things about him too.. helah belah diri? protective? sometimes we can be kinda close.. but we ~~always~~ sometimes don't.. hmmm.. this kind of unstable relationship can really kill me.. maybe it's because of the miserable past experience that happened to me at school before. well, i wont demand others to understand... and i dont want to mention anymore..

My friend said I admire and praise people easily.. She was right.. When I saw others did the thing that I couldn't do, I would think that" wahhhhhhhhh, so li hai this person!!!"

Why I wanna say this? because he is the person that I always think he is very li hai one.. He is very talented............. *skip the talents part* XD

I may care too much about a friend.. chinese proverb says," u depend on your parents at home, but u depend on your friends when you are outside.", thats why good friends are extremely important..

Yet, I wanna change my habits of putting overload caring on a friendship/relationship.. I have learnt that there doesn't have a fixed formula in a friendship.. You are not necessarily need to stick all day with a friend, baru call "friend".. the person that you care maybe choke to death because you don't give him/her more spaces. If I always feel insecure of a friendship, it is because I have Extra useless feeling... And now, I need to always remind myself to get rid of this kind of feeling to avoid another heart-broken.

"Others do not have to treat you the way that you treat them" I learnt this from my friend too..She is totally right..

I am naive to imagine that "maybe he will do this to me". but when the reality doesnt not happen on me, & it happens on other, sadness is the only path. (strange huh? My wishes... come true on other's people... woeful....... ) A friend has the authority to treat other people good... rather than me.. So, I will stop myself from imagining these stupid things from now on.

There is so much that I need to learn in my life... Knowledge, friendship, love, and so on.... I should stop imagine and beg for the thing that I don't need now... High expectation will lead to destruction..

I only need to expect and focus on the job that I have to complete.. I can't even manage my life and act like a 21 year-old person. I hate being childish but I can't help it.. I can only realise that I have done a totally big mistake after the incidents.

I did not have a new start in the semester 1 and my 21 year-old life.. My life was disorganized and my results are totally a mess.

SIGH. WTF. I hope I can still ameliorate the situation in the next semester. I am not dare to write out the resolutions and the beautiful wishes. coz Im afraid that I cant do them again and only talk big here.

it sucks when your mind says let go, but your heart tells you to hold on.. I hope we wont quarrel anymore. Cold war is suck.

God bless..

-要提起就要完全提起，要放下就要完全放下

I watched it too!!

2010-05-30T01:39:00.004+08:00

Finally......... I watched the movie "SHREK FOREVER AFTER" with my parents yesterday... Actually I should be watching with my friends Sim Yian Juang and Malvin Tan....... But then tat Juang got some problem and put me aeroplane... Then I have to break promise with Malvin too... I rushed my packing at that time because I hoped to watch this movie with my friends... Then... it was really "sayang".... Cartoon is better to be watched with my friends.. I pity my parents were forced by me to watch with me.. Actually I ~~had given a very strong signal to Malvin that I would like him to watch with me in Kuching~~ wished to invite him to watch with me in Kuching but he told me that Kuching's ticket is expensive, so I thought he did not have interest.. so I did not ask him lo... ok, never mind.. XD

Although I had never watched the episode 1,2 , and 3, I went to watch the final chapter @_@ I even asked my teacher could I watch this movie even if I had never watched the others episode before.. And I think it should be a nice movie coz even a 36 30 something year-old young ??? man likes it. hiak hiak hiak..

Ahha... I kinda like this movie... Cause besides of the hillarious and kawaii of the movie, it conveyed some lesson to me.. such as" U already got what u want, but u never see it.." Yup Shrek has got his friends and his family, yet he did not treasure it... He wanted to dump all the treasures away and be somehow aggressive and to be hated by people again... @_@ strange huh.. But human always behave like that too..

My tears even roll down when Shrek talked to his wife," Do you know what is the best part of the day? I am able to fall in love with you all over again.."

When Shrek back to the past and met his wife, his wife did not know him at all.. And Shrek has to start over again to chase his wife... Thats why " To fall in love with you all over again" Awwwwwwwwwww... Sweet... this greeny ogre..

However, there are some characters that seem like so outstanding, such as............ ~~OMG I LOVE HIM~~ PUSS IN THE BOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he looked so cool in the movie.. but in the past, he used to be a very fat and chubby cat that manja-manja by the princess.. LOL.. I love the part which that PUSS hold the pole and slided down.. and the WATERY EYES... as below:

ok, friends.. i wished u guys have the chance to watch this movie too!!!!!!!!!! I hoped I could watch the episode before too!!!!!!!! especially the episode that got Mr Puss!!!!!!!! Teehee~~

Finally Mr H!!!

2010-05-29T03:12:00.013+08:00

hey yo............. Finally, lots of free time here... whos is Me H.............

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MR HOLIDAYS!!!

Last time the holidays were in March... Although it is not a really long wait for somebody, it is A SUPER-DUPER LONG wait for me ok... After the exams, I have worked non-stop.. Packing all my things.. Well, for your information, I think I have the most things tat needed to be packed for my batch. This semester, I needed 4 boxes, 5 big plastics, one Polo suitcase, and a handcarry bag to store my things. O_o

I cant imagine what will happen for the next semester as books and files will surely increase!!!!!!!!!! Oh gosh......... Stop stop stop thinking about next semester >

After I reached home yesterday and have a short chit chat with mum...... erm, short? XD then I have a nice sleep in the morning............... TILL MIDNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! More than 12 hours.... Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~

U can guess how exhausted am I , huh?

My house in Kuching is big.............. But I will be very lonely without my brother... My dear brother.. T^T this is the drawback of having just only 2 kids in a family. sigh... My brother now has returned to Miri and ~~enjoy himself very much~~ is doing to find him a job soon... Well, congratz to him for realising his dream. Miri is an ideal place for him as his BUDDIES are waiting for him. 希望一切顺顺利利。。so tat the chances for me to visit Miri are getting higher!!!!!!!!!! Wakakakaak.. I really miss my hometown and my friends.............. I wont forget my root anyway... I grew up in Miri and it is my ONLY hometown.. I was being raised and educated in Miri.

*jump topic*

Lets talk about this semester XD very impromptu huh.. Well, this is the first semester of my degree life.. I dont really understand what had I done in the first semester and it ended just like that =________= I only know that I am lack of time to study... it is very woeful to me... 读书对我来说真的很重要，可是这次考试我看还是凶多吉少了。。唉。。 well, which college has so many NONSENSE activities even one week before exam????????????

I really dont understand why... when u wanna concentrate in studies, then suddenly POP!! AHHA!! U have worked tat needed to be done!! WAJIB! wajib wajib wajib.. the word that i hate the most.. keep threatening our lives here....

sigh... Maybe it is a lesson to me..... I really hope that next semester will be better......... even though I already know tat sem 2 will be busier than sem 1 =____=

Hey dd, jeje miss u la... I wonder if u miss me too??? T________T

arrrrrrgggghhhhh

2010-05-06T11:40:00.002+08:00

Exam season is coming again.. yet this time i think the exam will be so hard for me. last time when i was in secondary school, exam should be not a really big problem... But now, seeing the environment lk this... is really a SIGH.

This institute... semakin near exam, semakin busy.... they are really looking down at the exam.. exam is not " pass then enough" for me... I wont care if de activities not involve me, but they affected me very much..

IPG campus Gaya is so not considerate. Last week, my class jst finished fish tail ( a kind of banner which shaped like fish tail). The fish tail competition was held by jabatan sains.. as u know, we need to plan, draw, colour, and so on. OK, i tried my best to help- drawing and colouring... because i thought it should be LAST LAST LAST activity before exam... we even locked outside de gate because we went back to hostel at 12 am.. It was really SUCK.

After passed up ~~YES YIPPIE YAHOOO!!! MERDEKA~~ WTF! JPP said ," ok! another activity comes up!!! Poster drawing for class!!!!!!!!!!!!

POSTER? -DRAW AND COLOUR? ok, fine.. me again.. (sure other frens are involved too.. U THINK THIS IS THE LAST? Pertandingan bola baling this Friday..... =____= Bola baling.... I was forced to involve too... they kept saying tat I played well before... No, this is not the truth...Not enough people, so terpaksa get me in..

CONCLUSION: IN LESS THAN 2 WEEK, U NEED TO STUDY ALL THE SUBJECTS FOR FINAL, AND I DONT EVEN MASTER ONE OF THE SUBJECT YET...

DOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

曾几何时，考试对我来说是轻而易举，但现在的我，已无能为力。。只能看着时间流逝。。

HAHAHAAHA

2010-05-05T23:50:00.001+08:00

Looking back my old posts..... they looked childish.. interesting huh... ~~at least i have been young before...~~ =___________= ok, this is all i want to say now.. because I was too tired playing water and climbing rocks today.. oops wats tat mean? maybe I will tell u soon.. if i have de mood to write.. lol

Putus cinta

2010-03-21T00:19:00.003+08:00

WOW. My title..................... not for me.. don worry.. just tat my frensssssssssss.. most of them had lost their love one recently... I had not expected all of these will happen... coz some of them look so "stabil" with their ex- boyfrenss.... Well, what to do? Human can change very fast too.. For this second he/she treats u passionately, then don knw what will happen the next second... Recently I love an article very much.. 上了大学才知道。。。

上了大学才知道，许多曾经的人会变得让你认不出，但请留住回忆。

Human can change easily............ really...... sometimes u dont understand and cant figure out de reason... If they changed, until u nearly cant recognize them, it would be useless to find the reasons...... At least, keep the memories.

When my frens are sad, what can I do? I can only supply CAMPAP tissue paper...... I dont knw how to console ppl.. cause I dont have any experience in love.. what I said is also immature.. Well, maybe this is useful too.. My good fren is appreciate me at least ^^

Anyway, we are all waiting for the true prince to come into our lives....... ~~although they are nearly pupus~~ lol........ GOD BLESS....

2010-03-02T12:01:00.003+08:00

Wow... it has been such a long time since I updated my blog last time.. I can create so many reasons and explain the reasons of why Im not updating my blog..

1) I think my life is mundane. There are less interesting events to share with others.

2) after the end of the MUET, I have nil motivation to study english and increase my vocabulary. I think if I do not improve my English, it is hard for me to express my opinions with the others. I am kinda ashamed if there are too many blunders in my writing.

3) Life is hectic. Same routines are keep repeating. Assignments, ISL (Independent self learning la...... kononnya... every week lagi tu ==) , presentations.... Sigh.. I really dont understand why there are so many these kind of things.. Albeit I have been doing abundant assignments, I do not have any improvement in my studies and my life.

4) The kura-kura speed of my burukband... I do not have faith in the broadband.. I will feel agitated if I have finished writing but failed to save.. WTH? and I hate to wait such a long time to upload the photos...

5) Facebook.. woah... this thing is getting boring.. yet I still cant retrieve myself from it. I often express my impromptu feeling through status upadate. But it has created some misunderstandings too.. lol..

6) This is the foremost important reason.. Idleness... Ya.. Im totally a lazy pig now.. I should blame my brother for keep calling me piggy sis.. Now, I am lazy to study, do assignments, homework and so on.. I have been lost track to the study progress. I really dont understand what am i studying now,... The subjects are really really extremely BORING!!!!!!!! u see, i am really frustrated with this.. Like de subject "GERKO/kokurikulum, we need to do for 3 or 4 tugasan.. tugasan is just like assignments for me.. Nothing different. H-A-T-E.

Ok, enough of the nonsense.. lol.. i also dont know why i suddenly have the mood to update a post.. Well, RANDOM. Tats me XD

Lastly, I really appreciated my friends who call me to update my blog.. Thanks.. =)

August

2009-08-05T17:12:00.005+08:00

The honeymoon July has passed in a blink of an eye. At the end of July, i had a cold war with someone. Well, I did not want to narrate about it. Life is short and time is fleeting. I will learn to forgive and let him him goes. ~~It is always easier to say than done.~~ One of my friend said that restrained relationship ain't fun. Yes, absolutely right. I was on the verge of breaking down. Yet, with the blessing of God and the support from my friend, I was able to get through it. I will keep on moving and I hope that I can be more productive during August.

I can foretell that August will be a hectic month. The assignments are keep coming out. Today, I received my BM assignment. ~~shit question~~ The assignment wants us to find a poem and then hurai keselarasan vokal. That is fine. But then we need to use few words from poem and create a short story!!!! Cerpen!! The syllabus does not have cerpen but we need to do it. ~~shit! shit! shit!~~ I was quite enraged because my Bm vocabulary is limited. I have not completed a BM essay since I gratuated from secondary school. Now you want me to write a short story?? I was damn scared. My Bm is the worst in whole class. WHY? Out of 26 students, 24 are malays and bumi. 2 chinese. And the other chinese girl, her BM is splendid. She has mixed with Malays since secondary school. She speaks like Malay.

Sigh.. This assignment is needed to be hand in on 1 september. My school holidays end on 31 August. I come back to maktab ~~damn institute~~ on 31. That means I need to almost complete the assignment before holidays. Who will do assignments during holidays? At least I'm not the one. I need to accompany my precious family ~~who longs for my companion~~ and savour the mouth-watering food in Kch ok??

Finally, I will work hard for this month. Idleness please switch off and facebook please stop distract me ok?

I wanna go home..

a nice one..

2009-08-02T12:29:00.001+08:00

Lady Antebellum feat Jim Brickman (NEVER ALONE)

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when it's time to go home
May you always have plenty
The glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
With every year passing
They mean more than gold
May you win and stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Well, I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I'm not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fear surrounds you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when it's time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fear surrounds you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

There is something...

2009-07-19T03:04:00.002+08:00

There is something that I need to blog about, since it has been such a long time I don't update my blog. Sometimes when i have the mood to blog, the celcom broadband or the school wireless is not working well. Well, what can I say. This is what we call "life".. We can't always get what we want.

Firstly, I got number ONE for semester 2!!! UP UP! Actually I had a hard life during semester 2 and seldom studied. But I did put an effort in assignments. Most of the time, group work become individual work. Anyway this is totally out of my expectation. The GPA for semester 2 is 3.74, compared to semester one which is only 3.47. This can prove that maktab students depend on assignments' marks to survive. Sigh. I know this result happens once in a blue moon. I will cherish it. The semester 3 I will have to take MUET. I think I will concentrate in improving my English if can. Coz you cant retake the test right? Sure want to achieve as higher band as I can. Band 4 and above.

Secondly, I met many lecturers who like to fuss over trivial things for this semester. I am pretty detest these kind of situation. I am always thinking of "why they just cant make our lives easier?" Arrrgghh.. A pile of useless works are needed to be done.

Lastly, this semester can be either challenging ( MUET) or mundane (repetition of life). Just wanna to end this semester faster. I am bored with the foundation course. This does not mean that I anticipate the degree course. I think the situation wont get better since Science and Mathematics are now teaching in Malay. No comment. Any comment would be vain. I just think that the education system is disoriented. "They" are ambivalent and dilemma most of the time. Teachers and students are akin dolls. They can change the policy easily and we just follow blindly.

Now is 3.40am. Luckily tomorrow no class. But I will surely woke up by the chit chatting and laughing of a bunch of girls. Time to log out. Night.

kick me hard

2009-07-06T17:15:00.004+08:00

I'm just like a ball being kicked here and there. People talk to you because you are useful to them. And, they feel stupid to bother you when they feel that it is none of their business. Well, I should have take my friend's advice； you dont need to become a good people, you just need to become a Human. I think she is right, always. I'm too tired to be kind for sometimes. I feel weary of thinking and caring of others.. These are all follies.

Surrounded by millions people by, I feel alone.

Ok, i am ignorant because I languish love and company in this kind of world.
This kind of life... Suck!!!!

distance

2009-06-23T17:21:00.002+08:00

the distance between us is enormous, just like the universe. I should fathom the truth.

Dd's cakes

2009-06-18T20:03:00.006+08:00

Let the pictures tell the story. I am lazy to write.. Anyway, I am proud to have such a brother.

2009-06-16T01:00:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. I am not adroit in time management. When the holidays just started, I promised myself that I will do something significant, such as reading and a little bit studying. And now, this is the last week of holidays. I can only manage to finish 2 novels. I have not even touch Differentiation and Integration.

The main purpose of reading is to ameliorate my poor English standard. Next semester I will have to face MUET. I hope that I can get at least band 4 la in order to maintain the dignity of Chinese.. lol.. seem like so serious..

Everyday I hit the sack for almost 10 hours. I think this is a waste of time but I just cant help.. I feel a spasm of guilty. Whatever.. I know that it is no use to cry over the spilt milk. I just want to rant my feeling!!
It is surreal for me that the holidays passed just like that and the school is going to reopen imminently.

Thinking of these make me have goose-bumps-running-down-my-spine. Shudder.

Ambivalence

2009-06-13T00:57:00.003+08:00

Ok, my feeling is ambivalent. Just know that next semester I stay with same roommates.. I am happy that I still stay with the 3 nice malay girls.. Not the people with obnoxious behaviour!!! But, I am not satisfied that I am going to stay at C2B again.. the same room! oh shit! hate it.. It is 3rd floor (the highest floor) and the hottest place.. the place which is "near" the sun. I dont care my description true or false.. I only know that the next semester is a HOT sem!

And I gonna move my extremely heavy big bags from the store to 3rd floor.. Who will understand my woes?

message

2009-06-13T00:34:00.004+08:00

Maybe I am too greedy.. But I am hoping that the happiness can stay with me a little bit longer.

A message to my love: Dont succumb to sadness. Fight for the future as long as we are still alive. OK? Promise me.

everything passes in a wink of an eye

2009-06-08T19:10:00.006+08:00

Time and tide wait for no man.. The first week of holidays has just passed. I just ate, slept, facebook-ed, and went to shopping.. ^^ a big contrast with the hectic life of maktab..

Yesterday I went to Boulevard with my mum and dad.. My mum and I "separated" with dad because women and men worlds are totally different.. So I accompanied my mum. Boulevard had big sales so it was not surprised that the shopping mall was crowded with people.

It was an exuberant outing. Maybe it was because I dint shopping with my mum for such a long time..

I am thinking that studying outside is a process of growing up. I cant always stay at home and being pampered by parents. Who doesnt want an easy and peaceful life? If u dont wan, I want wo.. HAHAHa. So, I have to sacrifice some important things in order to become more mature. Anyway, I still wanna say that I love my family and my old friends. The memories when we were together will imprint in my mind forever.

Erm, I am ambivalent sometimes. Hoping can stay with family some more, yet I also hope can study oversea to widen my horizon.. Yes... Studying oversea.. A dream that cant come true..

Never mind la.. I should concentrate on teacher's course first. I hope can find out the significance of my life through becoming a teacher.

O_o

2009-06-03T00:19:00.002+08:00

woah... today i bumped into Dr Fong at one of the small restaurant in Kch.. i was not sure he still recognized me or not.. but i was a nerd when I studied in Chung Hua.. so if he did not remember me also never mind.. But I think he knew that I was from Chung Hua because I called him Dr Fong.. I told him I am studying in Maktab Gaya. hoho 逊掉了！！ i just had a short conversation with him. I never think that I will meet him again. So bumping into Dr fong was the astonishment of today..

super junior- it's you

2009-06-02T03:48:00.002+08:00

It’s you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s only you
It’s you
It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you
When you ask again, it’s only you
Even if you already have another love
I can’t forget you, I can’t turn back around
Oh ~
The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment my heart was captured by you
I have no regret, I chose you
That’s right, it’s you

Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you

It’s you
I don’t need any words. it’s just you
“ It’s too late “ , but for me it’s just you
I know our love is wrong
I can’t give up, I can’t let you go
Ah Ah

My lips, cold as can be, are even more blue
I cry out to find to find your warmth
I call, even though I call for you
And there’s no reply, I’ll wait for you

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Why don’t you know, why don’t you know?
For me, it’s you, it’s you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

It’s you

holidays

2009-05-31T01:04:00.001+08:00

i'm home..!!! HOHO.. 3 weeks holidays.. ENJOY!!

tips are flowing

2009-05-15T13:07:00.003+08:00

Recently i received many BM tips which should made me felt happy. Last year I dint receive any tips. But my friend said de tip detail dao................ //question leaked// if i got tips, my average will be 3.5 above liao la. Bang my head. This year the tips are ok ok. Many, yet confusing..

the funny part is the first message mentioned that the Gurindam and seloka will be out in exam.

Then the next message is : BEZA DARI DAHULU HINGGA SEKARANG GURINDAM & SELOKA.

Oh. My. Gosh. If this kind of question out, how am i going to write. Ada pengaruh sastera dalam islam lagi tu.

Yello boss, I am chinese ok.. Even Malays have the difficulties in answering.

Anyway, God bless. >.<

Picture of JJ's day

2009-05-06T15:44:00.008+08:00

the impending exams make me feel like............ wan to go home!! hahahaha.. so maybe there will be lesser posts recently.. it doesnt mean i am studying hard. I am still lazy.. The best reason for idleness is " I'm not lazy. I just get some rest before I'm tired." Cool huh..

This semester is really hard for me. The condition of my room is totally BAD. I believe no people can concentrate to study if the fan of your room is ROSAK!!!! Last time lampu rosak, then suis rosak, now kipas rosak. And also no handsome lecturer to motivate me O_o (Justzzz kidding) Tak menahan~~~ So cant blame me right??? XD

I hope this semester can over soon.. I anticipate the semester 3. Anyway, I am glad that time is ticking away.. Tick-toc, tick toc, tick- toc.....

control one's feeling

2009-05-06T15:23:00.003+08:00

I think..

Eating alone,

Shopping alone,

Walking alone,

Loving you alone,

All of these are normal.

I dont care how the others think.

I just want to constrain myself from entering the world

that is Restricted.

So, Just leave me alone.

I dont wan the feeling of deja vu,

the feeling of being hurt and abandoned.

I'm foolish

2009-04-25T12:29:00.005+08:00

I’m really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you

you’re looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
only you, I looked only at you
and the tears keep coming

As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy
even yet you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m wiating for you

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
but I cannot laugh with you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

bye bye, never say goodbye
even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you

纸船

2009-04-23T16:09:00.006+08:00

一艘小纸船，悠悠地飘过来，吸收水分，渐渐沉默，世上最美好的东西都有有效期限。。

但我却不愿如脑海逝去的脸庞一样，和你成为陌路人。

不是要放弃，而是不曾抓住。终究是要闭上眼，眼睁睁地看着他随风而去。。随波逐流吧。。为何一定要坚持到最后呢？

反正，我从平凡中而来，也将从平凡中逝去。

Transient happiness

2009-04-22T15:51:00.006+08:00

Yesterday I had my GERKO Bola Baling as usual, 4pm to 6pm. We had friendly match with TESL Group.. Two weeks before the TESL organized a small competition. There was no doubt that we needed to participate the competition. That time we were very blur and didnt even know the rules. And TESL was strong also with tall Indians and Malays plus a chinese who was a state player for basketball. So we lose and the score was 2-1. It was a brand new experience for me as I did not participate in any sport games before.

Surprisingly, we won yesterday. I played the defence position. I ran here and there to disturb the opponents. It was tiring but fun. When you concentrated on the ball, you wont think too much. Then, you can forget all the things and stress that made you frustrated.

Our team's scorer was Sakinah. She was an experienced player. I like the way she scored coz she bounced the ball so that the goalkeeper lost track with the ball. The ball was reflected into the goal.

The final score was 1-0. Luckily our goalkeeper was really damn li hai, or else the opponents wont score nothing.

The most important part of yesterday was after the game finished, I walked to the side of the field. Then I heard the boys scream "Ai Teng!" I looked at them then I saw the handsome boy from PJ option give me a thumbs up and smiled with a wide radiance. Oh. My. Gosh. He was Kelvin Poh. Many girls love him because he has cute smile and very man. I was totally surprised and shy and replied him with a thumbs up also then looked down pretending to tie up my shoes.

Sigh.. Happiness was transient. Yet I was contended.

After that, it was the boys turn to match. Our group won as usual because most of the boys were from PJ option. Their performance was superb which made me kept screaming for them. One of the boys even can laid down and shot!

This was my another nice experience in my life. Hoping that I have chosen the right path for my life. Rockssssssssssss!!!!

A nice experience

2009-04-20T15:38:00.003+08:00

Few days ago, my friend and I were called to help lecturer to do some work. The lecturer was Mr George. I was sleeping at that time but my friend woke me up. Tho my sleeping was disturbed, i still went to help. Hmm.. just wanna did some good deed and fulfilled my evil intention.. HEHEHE..

There were piles of documents without surprise.. We arranged and stapled them. Mr George and Mr Chan were there helping us also. I am quite admired them because they can communicate well and they are cool. Mr George teaches me Kemahiran Berfikir/ Thinking Skills. You will be attracted by him when he starts talking. I wish I can talk like him someday. And Mr Chan doesnt teach me. But i judge him as a good lecturer. I dont have bias against him although i admit he is cute with dimples.. XD

Then I helped Pn Goh to burn the cd. The burning process took a long time. So I killed time by chatting with lecturers. Actually they were the one who talked to me first. Yes, how could I talk much since I was so shy one? The main point of conversation was they were shocked that i got straight As in SPM but I chose to become a teacher. They kept "bom" me and i didnt know how to reply them. Sigh. Mr Chan suggested me to choose chemical engineers. Yes, I know engineering is a "hot" study field. I have many friends choose engineering. The coolest reason that I could think now was I dont want to follow other people paces. What a bullshit reason huh..

There were many reasons for me to get into maktab.. It was quite complicated.. But are they important now? No, not at all.. There was another female lecturer on the spot while I "kena bom". She wanted me to ignore the "bad guys". She said," Show them what you got! Prove to them!" She did not agree them to frighten me. I felt touched and I will remember her words. It was too bad for me that I didnt know her name. However, I knew Mr George and Mr Chan were with good intentions also. I appreciated their kindness.. Hmm. Lecturers from Jabatan Profesiolisme are really Professional.

Then, Sir Henry came into the jabatan awhile. He was my evil intention. Ooops what did I say? Neh, just kidding. After finishing all the jobs, they brought us to eat. XD happy~~ walau.. Eating with lecturers was a nice experience. It was because both of them were hilarious and fun.

Being a teacher is not easy. Being a Good teacher is NEVER EASY. Well, I wonder what kind of teacher I will become in a future.

敬请期待。

Deteriorate

2009-04-20T11:05:00.001+08:00

I'm deteriorating. I hate myself.

The most intricate thing

2009-04-15T17:46:00.001+08:00

The most intricate thing to find in this world.
Is it a needle that you lost in the desert?

The most intricate thing to find in this world.
Is it a crow's feather that you lost in the darkness of the night?

The most intricate thing to find in this world is,
Realizing your own erroneous contemplation.

A slice of life

2009-04-08T13:25:00.006+08:00

Life is rushing to make up on lost time

I have to stop and catch my breath

Move to the stands and catch a good sit

Take some time to look around

Get myself a slice of life

Just so I can stay sane

Going through my life..

What hurts the most?

2009-04-07T14:35:00.005+08:00

What hurts the most for you now? I believe your heart will feel like being torn apart when your loves one are hurt by a monster. The saddest thing is you are unable to protect your love one. You are POWERLESS.

Once again, the monster beat my mum. I wondered why your hand did not feel pain when you hit somebody. Why are you always so childish and cannot control your emotion at all. What heinous crime has been committed by others that you totally cannot forgive them. Yae, I should know that monster only has the feeling of anger and hatred. "Monster” is the designation for belligerent human. You are akin a catastrophe to us. We have endured the torment for so many years. U knew why I insisted to study outside? It was because I wanted to be independent.. And the utmost important reason was I wanted to stay away from U. Actually I could choose Curtin to study but I didnt. Who would forcast that you transferred to Kuching work?? If like that I will stay in Miri with mother now.. Well, I know life is which unexpected events always happen. I will let bygone be bygone and look forward.

I know that in the deep of my heart, I feel a little bit fortunate because I dont need to face melancholy now. My brother is the one who always carries the burden. He has become more mature and protective. Luckily he protected my mother that day. Or else, I could not think what would happen. He must be underwent excruciating pain when the monster said," you think you can protect your mother even if you are here???" I, as the bystander, feel like there is a knife piercing through my heart when I remember his word. How bout my brother? How did he feel when he heard the word?

Anyway, thank you dd for giving unconditional love and support to mum. You are the pillar for me and mother. YOU ARE MAN!!! I love you..

I hope that the monster can exercise the forbearance in treating people tho I understand that this is an unattainable wish.

pondering

2009-04-02T14:52:00.007+08:00

AN EMO POST. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

I am pondering that is there any eternity relationship in this world? Eternity friendship? Eternity love? Well, actually I dont think so.. Partings and reunions are vicissitudes of life. We always need to separate with the person that we care and love. I feel that my old friends and I are akin the ships travel in the sea. Some of the ships travel to Pacific Ocean, some travels to Atlantic Ocean.. Every ship has its own journey. Different life.

All of us lead a hectic life now. We need to work and study. I admit that this kind of life has made me become forgetful. I forget the old memories.. Forget that we had been so close before. Frankly, human is forgetful. I am one of them. No matter how good I treated you before, or vice versa, all of them will be omitted.

When you said you missed me, you wanna see me.. I believed it was true. I went back to my hometown and planned to see you. At last, we dint meet each other tho we were in the same city. How sarcastic huh.. You knew that this was a once in a blue moon opportunity. Sadly, it was not treasured by anyone..

And now, I might dont have the chance to see my old friends anymore. Since I left my hometown and transferred to a city that I longed to go before but not now.. It was ironic for me, but not you. I also do not deem that human relationships can be deepened by using sms or phone call or MSN. There are too many barriers; distance, time, money and fate. We cannot know each other's life explicitly.. It is vague.. And sometimes we are lazy to type or call. Therefore, we are estranged day by day..

I know my post may not be 100% true.. But I believe some parts are correct. I will be idle to explain to my friends the reasons that I write this emo post. I do not force you to truly understand me. Perhaps strangers may understand. The thinking keeps popping out from my head so I have to write. I am just lugubrious to human relationship recently..

a guilty conscience

2009-03-31T21:58:00.004+08:00

Monday - I ruined my roommate's iron. Luckily it still can be used. And she did not angry. Phew~ but i was culpable for my carelessness.

Tuesday - While playing bola baling, I wanna threw the ball. But the ball slipped from my hand and hit my friend's face. I apologized. I felt guilty.

Wednesday - what will happen. I don dare to think. (I foretell that the rest of the week will be auspicious for @teng) hehe...

And I never mean to hurt anyone. Really. Truly. Sincerely. Sorry

著作権を所有します。

2009-03-30T21:00:00.003+08:00

Recently my life is mundane as usual.. There is no special event has happened tat can make people excited about it.. Maybe it is good also because it means I am safe enough. I just need to repeat the monotonous task everyday.

But, there are always something that can affect your mood. Such as, how do you feel when you see other people imitate your work? Since you have spent so many sleepless nights and so many hours to find information from everywhere and finally you success to create the work that you are satisfied with. I have done the research on that things for such a long duration. Now I can understand why the artists are frustrated when there are people steal their work and produce pirated CDs. It is absolute agony. And also, if you cant even know the basic, how can you create the work which is advanced your level? I just feel sorry that I cant tell everything right now.. It is unfortunate for you to meet an egocentric person like me.

It's Ok also as most of the work is done by me. That is fine. I will convince myself that I have learnt umpteen knowledge. Because I learned that I cant always have faith in other people. I am just a toy that is played by other mankind.

亲爱的小孩

2009-03-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

亲爱的小孩：

曾经我也想你一样，抬头仰望一片新叶，看一朵飘过的云，就会觉得快乐。

曾经我也能静静地站在树下，听风翻舞树林，小鸟鸣唱，就会觉得感动。

昨天我在公园里学你，听鸟唱风吹，看绿叶云飘，竟觉得十分地萧索无趣。

我感到微微地震撼，心情郁闷地走进一家高级餐厅，点了昂贵的餐，还喝了红酒。后来，我态度倨傲
地抱怨鱼子酱不新鲜，指责牛排不够嫩。。。。其实我只是借故发挥，舒缓我躁郁难平的情绪。。。我一直很懊恼，我怎么会变得如此可憎呢？

我嫉妒你，痛心哀悼我逝去的。。

大话证劵王董四月六日

摘自《我只能为你画一张小卡片》

欣赏几米ing。。。

2009-03-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

最近爱上了几米的作品，为何没早点注意到你的作品呢?
几米的文章是那么的真实，又是那么的虚幻。
介于那个美妙的平衡点。希望有空可以分享几米的文章。打华语字比较难，需要多点时间。哈哈。
人总是这样吧。爱幻想自己很凄凉。。我也是其中一个。喜欢冷嗖嗖的感觉。。我就分享其中一句我深深爱上的句子吧。。

冬日，天一暗，即昏沉入睡。夜里的梦又多又杂，天未亮就恍惚醒来。真伤脑筋。

摘自-我只能为你画一张卡片

Let bygone be bygone

2009-03-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

I was so hilarious.. I thought that I would not hurt by you anymore. I was ambivalent. Anyway, I will wear a mask and walk away tho scandal wont stop. Let bygone be bygone.. Do not dig out the absurd feeling again.
End.

Maze

2009-03-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

I was the most unfortunate.
I knew that there was no exit out of this maze.

Then, he was the next unfortunate.
He did not know that there was no exit out of this maze.

But all the rest weren't so unfortunate.
They didn't know that they were in the maze in the first place.

-Frederica Bernkastel

Perhaps

2009-03-26T16:35:00.001+08:00

Maybe I should not possess anything

I can relinquish everything..

Possessing is good

Losing is also okay..

Hope everything will be fine

Perhaps I can surpass these..

As time is sprinting

in this shimmering city.

reiterate

2009-03-26T13:34:00.002+08:00

Again.. I commit the sin of omission..

miles away

2009-03-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

Yes, I saw you today.. so near yet so far.. I will endure the torment anyway.

skeptical

2009-03-25T07:41:00.000+08:00

phew~ finally i success to log in my blog. I should treasure the opportunity to update although i dont have anything special to share. How woeful..

Now my life goes on by doing assignments blindly.. And when you knew there were some mistakes in your assignments, it was akin a knife which was piercing your heart. I know every human makes flaws. I should accept the reality with open-hearted and avoid making the same mistake notwithstanding I always do. I also detest that I cant get full mark in the exam because of careless mistakes.. careless careless careless.. what the hell.. Get out from my life!

Besides, I also skeptical of myself.. Just feel like starting to lose my target.. Or maybe it is because I am not dare to dream big. I dont want to face the trepidation. Whatever... The most important now is finishing all the damn assignments and presentations so that i can focus on studies. Yea.. I forget how to study hard.. How to achieve excellent results.. Does it important anyway? Who cares? As long as i can finish this one-and-a-half-year foundation course ( what for with the extra-half-year) i should be contended.

Holiday

2009-03-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

wohoooooo!!!!!! Yeeeha!!!!!!!!

Finally I was in kuching! Wow it was a long journey.. the flight delay a bit because it was raining.. And so many people went to kuching tat day.. I was unable to sit with my friend so I felt a little bit insecure.. hehe.. why the air asia doesnt allow us to sit at Fixed position? sigh.. Anyway, one week holiday is transient. it passes in a wink of an eye.. I don wan to do anything and let it passes like tat.. One of my friend with special characteristic said time is used to be wasted.. Wow.. speechless.. isnt it true? we oways let time passes and we become old day by day.. we dont know how long can we stay alive..

Hey, "touch wood". why say this kind of thing now? =_= it is not like me.. I am forced to swith off my idleness anyway.. I mst try to do some assignments this holiday for the sake of easiness of life in the future.. so i end this post with this..

IDLENESS, PLEASE $WITH OFF!!!!!!!!!!!

My God

2009-03-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

This post is especially for my God. Thank you for helping me found my N70 memory card. HAHAHA..

And please bless my mother will stay healthy forever and overcome the obstacles.

And my one and only brother.. Wish you can finish the course smoothly and find a good job.. And also a nice girl lah.. hahaha..

I knw i am greedy.. BUt if my family can stay happiness, i can endure all the hardship of life.. I no need always woory about them.. I think i can endure the study life at gaya there.. No matter how hard is it.. Life isnt easy.. 不容易啊。。。 lol..

My simple request is my family can be always healthy and happy.. MAMA and DIDI.. I love you. Muacks.

Ameliorate or downgrade

2009-03-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

Recently, I was forgetful.. I had lost my N70 memory card which contained my precious memory. Heart-broken. God bless me I can find it soon pls.. I swear I will take care of it.

Next, I am idle and work-shy. I just dont have the motivation to work. Maybe it is because the holiday is impending.. Or I'm missing my family. Or you are not my lecturer anymore.. Anyway, I will drag my body to continue the work. Sigh..

I should ameliorate myself.. But, when can I achieve my dream? I still have a long way to go. Do I still alive before attain the dream? Seeing my friends move forward day by day, yet I am standing at the starting point.. Or maybe I'm moving backward.. I am akin a kampung girl.

I'm emo now. Time to log out. Night..

Happy Birthday

2009-03-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

Today is Beatrice and Kee Hee birthday.. As a friend, I can only wish you two happy birthday.. Wish our friendship is eternity although we are far away from each other. ALL THE BEST TO MY FRIENDS!

Solitude

2009-03-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air.
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go.
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all.
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life's gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

Fire and Ice

2009-02-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

Some say the world will end in fire,

Some say in ice.

From what I've tasted of desire

I hold with those who favor fire.

But if it had to perish twice,

I think I know enough of hate

To say that for destruction ice

Is also great

And would suffice.

Robert Frost

The rain

2009-02-27T18:30:00.000+08:00

The first time you looked at me,

The first time we talked,

The first time I knew that I like you,

was because of the rain..

Thanks to the rain and the memories

Yet I will go on my life without you

Deep in my heart

I realised that

It was the beginning and also the end..

After the transient rain was stop..

Insane

2009-02-27T12:58:00.000+08:00

This is my dearest bm project which has made me suffer for so long.. I have passed up.. I tot i wouldl never see it again.. But Wat-The-Hell why it appeared again on my bed?????????? it was bcoz this poor thing was rejected by the BITCH LECTURER.. She returned the project to whole class today..

She wanted us to use COLOUR to highlight the word, added FRAME to the mind map, bibliography must have 10, and bind the project by RING.. Bla bla bla... Hello??? not everyone rich like you ok? My project has almost 80 pages and you wan me to print again? after giving us the lecture that you think was brilliant then u wanted us to belanja you satay??? Dreaming la you! Bullshit!!!

So now, i need to pass up BM on monday, PJ on tuesday, ENGLISH on wednesday.. Oh, I almost forgot.. And also the multitudinous Maths exercises on Monday which got marks.. Luckily I almost finished them. Or else I really will kill myself.. If i was in US, i will use gun to kill YOU!!!!!!!

I wan my bed

2009-02-27T00:28:00.000+08:00

Restless life is killing me!!!!!!!!

Every morning i go to canteen and order nescafe tarik peng.. I need nescafe to keep me awake during the class.. But the actual reason is i am addicted to it!!! XD I dont know my stomach can stand for how long.. I heard tat drinking coffee in the early morning without breakfast will harm the stomach.. Well, how can i care the health when i have insufficient sleep almost everyday.. So drinking coffee is just fine.. Heheheeh..

I have the time to write blog now because i am scanning PJ book for assignment.. I really dont have the patient to stare at the book and wait.. Hence i use my leg to "tekan" de book on the printer and my hands are typing..

The onion head.. I believe most of my friends are jealous with him.. Everyone lead a hectic life now.. We seldom have a good night sleep without worrying.. I'm worn-out now.. Time to sign out and GOOD NIGHT & SLEEP TIGHT to my friend!!!!!!

属于

2009-02-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

我坚持的都值得坚持吗

我所相信的就是真的吗

如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了不要呢
或许吧或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌吧
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢不要呢?
是他吧命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧他原来就在这里啊
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们还要努力

Oh My Gosh!!!!!

2009-02-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

Oh.

MY.

FREAKING

GOSH.

can i summit the assignments on time? Why the lecturer so fussy? No matter how we do the assignments, we still cant meet her demand? Why u always deny us? Do u know we still have other work need to do? I know u will never fathom us. You are selfish and mean...

Time is ticking away.. Lack of sleep and rest is killing me.. I am exhausted, frustrated, and on the verge of collapsing..

The day

2009-02-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the day.. Finally the day has come..

I have prepared this for so long..

I can only now pray to God that He can bless us, so that every things go well..

Pesta Angpau 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Room 2009

2009-02-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

People say friendship is like a circle,

It goes round without end.

People say friendship is like wine,

It tastes good with ages.

People say friendship is like sunshine,

It brightens your life,

For me,

Friendship is like room 2009,

Transient happiness yet eternity..

My religion

2009-01-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

This is my simple religion.

There is no need for temples;

no need for complicated philosophy.

Our own brain, our own heart is our temple;

the philosophy of kindness.

THE 14TH DALAI LAMA

Diabolo

2009-01-29T15:39:00.000+08:00

I have ambivalent feeling towards diabolo.. You will love it and cherish it when you learn new skills.. But you will feel frustrated and hopeless when you are in the process of learning new skills.. When you look at de diabolo tricks tutorial video, you think that you can do it too.. But it is easier said then done.. But at least now I can do the Eight Basic Skills.. God bless me can complete the advanced skills soon.. I am dying for learning them!!!

My friends and I will do the diabolo performance at the pesta Angpau on 7th Feb.. I cant imagine the situation that day... >.<>

A New Beginning- Reborn

2009-01-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

The rain is pouring heavily

Wash away the past fervently

Purify the Mother Earth

It's a brand New Year

a brand new day

&

my 20th birthday

I'll reborn

to become a better man..

I'll find my way..

d

Not connected

2009-01-17T23:32:00.001+08:00

Time is ticking away

We forget each other day by day

Life is hectic

With tons of homework and activities

We have been so close before

Yet, not again anymore

Without you, my heart will not throbbing unusual

But how can you be so brutal

It's too arduos

That you become obnoxious

I can't fathom

Or maybe it's because I don't want to..

I will neglect the memories

So that we are

not connected..

Affront

2009-01-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

I have so long dint update my blog. My mind was preoccupied by many trivial and important things. Now i dont have class and activity. I really wanna to say :" so syok!!!" LOL

I would like to share my life in maktab to everyone.. I could still remember how my English Language Proficiency teacher described this maktab last year during the class.. "INDAH KHABAR DARI RUPA" I think he was absolutely correct.

I started 2009 with wearisome affairs. The day of the check-in at the hostel, i realised that i cant find my name on the list.. So i asked the teacher the reason.. After she "dragging and lagging", the reason was i dint check out properly last year. I dint sign my name at the book. Actually that time i was too busy packing my things and forgot to check-out, so my friend volunteered to help me return the key and sign. I can only blame myself.. If i check-out that day, I would not have to face the troublesome problems.

The warden is Puan Jean. She is also a lecturer. I dont know how this kind of people can become a lecturer. She wanted me to write letter to get a room. She told me how to write and follow instructions. I could assure that she was looking at me while i wrote. After I finished, she said my format wrong. There was monologue in my heart," why you dint say it earlier?" I knew she was doing this on purpose. I keep on doing correction countless time.. She made fun on me. She even said," you make me laugh.. HAHAHHAHHAHA." I was quite confident on my BM writing and I got A1 in SPM. I dint think I make many mistakes. Tears started to roll down my face. There were butterflies in my stomach. I was apprehensive because my aunty and cousin were waiting for me at outside. I dint want them to wait for me too long. At last, she finally accepted my letter and said will give me a TEMPORARY room. "say say nia la" Now i have my room with one of the florescent lights damaged.. I have reported and no one come to fix it until now..

I really detest that woman.. I have never met such an obnoxious person before. There are two wardens at hostel, one male and one female, one w0rk-shy and one wicked..

Anyway, i'm not the only victim.. May God bless us can get away from the devil's jaws..

Reminiscence

2009-01-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

Finally year 2008 has passed. 2008 was a year of a turning point of my life.. After the spm, i did not know where should i go.. My parents also didnt express their opinion about my studies. They just gave a vague answer. So, i decided to pursue A-Level at RIT.

While studying at RIT, i learned many new knowledge. I tried my best to cope with the studies. I admitted that I was not a capable and intelligent person. There were so many othert students with devastating wits. They really widened my horizon.. haha.

After the spm results were announced, i got straight As. Well, it was not an excellent results compared to others. And the result didnt meet my expectation and I was disappointed with it. Then, everyone was busy interviewing to get a scholarship.. That period was the crux of my life.. I went to JPA and KPLSPM (kelulusan perguruan lepasan SPM) interviews. I failed JPA interview and didnt appeal. I also failed many times for the KPLSPM because i kept appealing but unsuccessful. I was frustrated. 11As cant get in maktab.. I believe... maybe... there is little a racial discrimination.. ;-)

I had no choice at that time because i had quitted A-Level.. I quitted because my father, who is a violent and agitated person kept disturbing my studies.. There is no tranquil life if u want to live with him.. Only a few close friends understand my problems. I detest his behaviour and realised that if I stay with him, I cant concentrate my studies forever. While waiting for the third times appeal result to come out, I studied at UNITAR, Sabah.. I applied for the loan.. Life is which unexpected events always happen. After studied 2 days at UNITAR, the result came out and finally i success to get into the maktab.. I was quite unwilling to give up the chance to study at university. I was ambivalent. However, my mum and aunt kept encouraged me to grab the scarce chance.. This is how i end up at maktab..

This is my study process.. From RIT to UNITAR to maktab.. Oh my gosh.. What an intriguing life!!! LOL Today is 1 Jan 2009.. I wish everyone has an auspicious start... Haizz.. I think I should satisfied with my life now.. At least, we are better than the victims of Gaza strip, right?? There are many innocent lives have gone.. Seeing so many children bleed because of the belligerency and cruellty of human beings.. Let us pray for the victims.. God bless.

Happy New Year 2009!

Movies Time

2008-12-30T05:45:00.000+08:00

I watched Bedtime Stories yesterday with my family at Star Cineplex, Kuching. Before watching the movie, i never think that i will fond of it. However, it took me by surprise. It is a hilarious and intriguing movie! The audience couldn't stop laughing. Everyone was in a state of euphoria. I like the silly acting of the main character, Skeeter.

Guess which character I like the most?

Skeeter?

Nope..

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Bugsy!! the Guinea pig with weird eyes.
mwahahahahaa

Bedtime stories is about a hotel handyman, Skeeper, whose life is changed when the bedtime stories he tells his niece and nephew mysteriously become true. Actually, the kids control the stories and start to turn his life upside down.

I had watched many movies this holiday. I strongly recommend Bedtime Stories, Beverly Hill Chiwawa, and Ip Man. Watching movie is a good leisure activity which help us to pass the time faster when we are boring, especially during holiday. Although there were happy and sad events happened during this holiday, overall i was satisfied with my holiday. At least I can meet my family.. HAHA..

These are the posters of my favourite movies. =)

Starry Night

no update

xiao ren

i have told already

first day

Conclusion......

waste

familiar and unfamiliar

Listening

A-Team

Road

A message

I watched it too!!

Finally Mr H!!!

arrrrrrgggghhhhh

HAHAHAAHA

Putus cinta

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August

a nice one..

Lady Antebellum feat Jim Brickman (NEVER ALONE)

There is something...

kick me hard

distance

Dd's cakes

Ambivalence

message

everything passes in a wink of an eye

O_o

super junior- it's you

holidays

tips are flowing

Picture of JJ's day

control one's feeling

I'm foolish

纸船

Transient happiness

A nice experience

Deteriorate

The most intricate thing

A slice of life

What hurts the most?

pondering

a guilty conscience

著作権を所有します。

Recently my life is mundane as usual.. There is no special event has happened tat can make people excited about it.. Maybe it is good also because it means I am safe enough. I just need to repeat the monotonous task everyday.

亲爱的小孩

欣赏几米ing。。。

Let bygone be bygone

Maze

Perhaps

reiterate

miles away

skeptical

Holiday

My God

Ameliorate or downgrade

Happy Birthday

最近怎么了。。。

Solitude

Fire and Ice

The rain

Insane

I wan my bed

属于

Oh My Gosh!!!!!

The day

Room 2009

My religion

There is no need for temples;

no need for complicated philosophy.

Our own brain, our own heart is our temple;

the philosophy of kindness.

Diabolo

A New Beginning- Reborn

Not connected

Affront

Reminiscence

Movies Time

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